September, 2006

It has been an eventful month indeed. I'm going to continue with my blogging trend of some serious topics, so here it goes...
I found out tonight that my Grandpa is going into hospice care. The surgeon said there is nothing else that can be done to treat his cancer. Now, our focus is to keep him comfortable. Wow. I haven't processed it completely yet. Andrew and I purchased plane tickets tonight and will go down in a few weeks to visit.
For the first time in my life and career as a nurse, I watched a patient die. I was assigned to this 18 year-old with many health problems. He was so sick and struggled for quite a while. I took care of him all weekend, and he passed away shortly after I left on Sunday. I was with his family when he started getting sick up until the end. It was the saddest event I have witnessed, and I can't even imagine going through that with my child. I was really depressed the for the day after I took care of him. However, I have begun to make peace with knowing that he no longer has to struggle, and hopefully somehow I helped his family in the time of deepest need.
I feel like there is a lot to process at this time. I feel that the experiences I have are catalysts to my growth as a person. Life is interesting. Thank goodness for God, family, and friends.